About cellphones and cookware

A few minutes ago I saw her leaving to... somewhere.  Last week I saw a lot of her, even felt some intimacy.  But this not knowing is destroying me.  As if I could be destroyed!

Thirdsday before last, she told me that since that february about me breaking with her she started having doubts.  She said she did'n think I loved her because did nothing for her.

Who gave her that new cellphone?

A grey and black sweater..., or jersey.

Saw her. She asked me for a list, was wearing a gray jersey of mine. Told me she'll be in Pachuca for the weekend. With whom? Where, exactly? I kissed her right cheek.

She called me

Last Saturday, Sugeil called me. I asked her why she didn't greeted me for my birthday. Said this wasn't my phone-call. Also told me that El Chino kept on phoning her, perhaps because he thought that she was involved with someone in Central de Abasto.

Atlantis

Saw you in a blue new dress...

You were my Atlantis, in your cataclysm you sucked me the deepest into the Ocean of Time, my fragments lay scattered all over the continents.

Even more sad not-news...

Saw her las thursday

What was I waiting for?

Unnintended alliteration....

She didn't even call for my birthday, and haven't seen her all week long.  Is she mad at me?  Is it that she just forgot?

Gods...

51

Last Friday we went to La Feria de Chapultepec, yesterday I helped her with a taquiza.  It occurs to me that I never got to dance with her, but surely she has danced with someone since... Perhaps —nigh!, almost sure— with the guy she went with to that Briseiswise wedding.

Today I'm fifty-one.